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This post is going to just ramblings of my the everlasting tunnels that are intwined in my brain. 

I do not know where to begin accept that I am moving to Chicago the beginning of August and I am terrified. Knowing no one but the people on my team if that counts as knowing them trying to find housing with them is all we have in common at the moment. Which is fine I will really like them we all seem really down to earth. My service assignment for the year seems really interesting I will be working with Chicago House. 

This is their mission statement: “Chicago House and Social Service Agency serves individuals and families by providing housing, employment services, medical linkages, HIV prevention services, and other supportive services to those who are disenfranchised by HIV/AIDS, poverty, homelessness, and/or gender nonconformity. All Chicago House services are provided without discrimination and are explicitly designed to guide people towards wholeness and self-sufficiency.”

I could not be more thrilled to be working with them, I have so many high hopes for this program that I hope I can make a difference while I am there.

Now as far as Oklahoma goes, I am completely saddened by all those pour innocent children who have died. I work in Disaster Management and if my program was not ending so soon I would have most likely been deployed out there, I would have been terrified to work with those families but I also would have loved to be there giving a helping hand to those who needed it.


Also I don’t know why I named my post what I did. Enjoy


“Don’t fight for your right, fight for what’s right.”
The amount of power in this phrase is beyond powerful. We forget to do the right thing because we fear that if we do the right thing we will get backlash, “No good deed goes unpunished” is what people break it down too.
I want to be the kind of man who will look back at my life and when my children (If I have any) asked me what I did back than, I want to say, “I did the right thing even when the right thing was hard to do”. We all should live by the simplest of rules, the most common of rules, look out for your fellow (wo)man.
In my anthropolgy class I had when I took a semester of college we were asked the simple question:
“Where do you keep your left over food?”
The obvious answer is, “The fridge”
That was not always the answer the ancient men and women had it right, they would answer by saying. “In the belly of your neighbor”.
That is what human decency is all about helping someone out, because one day you may be the one who needs helps, and the only way you will get it is by being a kind human being.
Never forget what it means to be alive and human.

“I told you to be patient, I told you to be fine
I told you to be balanced, I told you to be kind”
-Skinny Love by Bon Iver

Just received a job offer in Chicago! I would be working with people affected with HIV and AIDS. They received over 2,000 applications, choice 15 to interview, and I was one of 9 who got the job. My mind is going crazy. I don’t know what to do.

Sitting in a boring meeting (well what I thought was going to be boring) about law and big government does not seem exciting, except it turned into a life lessons 101.
“There is not one way to get there” you can take as many breaks and travel as much as you need, you will get there when you get there. “It is okay to stumble just remember to pick yourself back up” I took that to heart because I am more lost than any of my friends (not to say that my friends aren’t lost, just that it seems like they have it all together, which we all know isn’t true) I dropped out of school twice and decided to travel the country with a youth volunteer program and here I am still just as lost but I have found out more than I ever could have imagined. Sometimes you need to stumble and fall, that is when you will discover yourself and how strong you really are.