Archives for the month of: April, 2013

Sitting in a boring meeting (well what I thought was going to be boring) about law and big government does not seem exciting, except it turned into a life lessons 101.
“There is not one way to get there” you can take as many breaks and travel as much as you need, you will get there when you get there. “It is okay to stumble just remember to pick yourself back up” I took that to heart because I am more lost than any of my friends (not to say that my friends aren’t lost, just that it seems like they have it all together, which we all know isn’t true) I dropped out of school twice and decided to travel the country with a youth volunteer program and here I am still just as lost but I have found out more than I ever could have imagined. Sometimes you need to stumble and fall, that is when you will discover yourself and how strong you really are.


No one ever said I had to have my life planned out by the time I turned 20, I am 19 and don’t plan on having a plan anytime soon. I never did have a plan to begin with actually, I did what ever “normal” high school graduate does, went away to school for a semester, and then I realized that I hated my school and everything about it, I was unhappy. I dropped out for a week during winter break, and I regretted it. I was unable to follow through; what was I going to do next? So the week passed and I enrolled in community college (also know as Hell on earth). I was miserable for the spring semester, normally I can make friends anywhere I go, and I take pride in that but not this time. I smiled at no one and talked to as little people as possible. And I was fine with that because for the first time I did not need to try anything or do anything but get my work done and go home, relax and read.

But I knew I needed to do something, I was missing something. I knew what I needed to do; travel. I signed up a volunteer organization that was 10 months long and allowed you to travel and do some good in the world. I signed up without thinking twice.

This program currently ends June 14th 2013- I am currently serving. This is probably one of the hardest things I have ever had to do. I have faced challenges that many people won’t normally experience. That being said this is one of the most rewarding times of my life. I never imagined myself being in situations living with the same 8 people for 10 months of my life, eating, working, sleeping, breathing together for better or worse we became a family; a family of survivors. I have gained patience beyond my wildest dreams, I have matured in the workplace like I could have never imagined.

Now as my year is coming to a close, what do I do next? I will let the universe unfold as it may and figure it out as I go.

The twenties are meant to be confusing, I am meant to find different places to live and explore, different people to explore.

I think I am ready to face the world, I don’t think the world is ready for me though.

“Our generation is going to witness the end of everything”

The saddest statement I have heard in a long while, and quite possibly the truest.  This world is not getting better, and no one is doing anything to change it. And I don’t know why no one sees the damage we are causing. 

I don’t know what else to write but that is all I have to say.


Watch The Teenage Apocalypse Trilogy:

Totally Fucked Up

The Doom Generation


I’m sitting at a pond, about to volunteer for global youth service day. I am at peace listening to the sounds of birds chirping and the way the sun reflects the images of the trees in the pond.
That is all.



Here we are, the final countdown.  The toughest, most difficult, yet most rewarding time of my life.  I am graduating in 47 days, and flying home in 48 days.  10 months of service just flew by.  I know that I can say this experience changed me and it has awoken something inside me. Something I didn’t know existed until this year (or rather I knew existed but never believed it); Strength. I have battled many things this year. I cannot even count the amount of times I thought of quitting, returning home, and finding something to do, or booking a ticket to somewhere exciting and just leaving. (Wishful thinking?)  I couldn’t leave my team like that though, we have been through too much together for me to up and leave. We are a family, for better or for worse.  I am changed because of them. Changed for the better I believe.  I used to be so impatient now I am at peace (my team may beg to differ though, since I am always stressed, haha).  The people I met along this journey have changed me, all of the Survivors I met during Hurricane Sandy, all the Corps Members I met through my year of service, all the FEMA Employees that I have worked with throughout this year.  I have faced many challenges this year, one of which being the “Unknown” some days my team and I would get up for the day and have no where to go, it was a different situation and a different story every morning.  Now we are in our 3rd and final round of FEMA Corps.  Stationed in Washington, D.C. working at FEMA Headquarters.  This is the happiest I have been all year.  I am in love with this city, it’s beauty, it’s people, all of it. I want this all for my future. I began to explore this city, making friends where ever I went, I made friends with a woman at an Artsy Dance Party called, “Cherry Blast”. She helped me discover This site has been a lifesaver in DC (they also have one for NYC), it has all the best information on events that are going around all over the city along with blogs from different people. So what does this next year hold for me?:

I have applied to Rutgers University (Major: Psychology Minor: Sociology) I am hoping I get into the program so I can attend college again (Man, I miss taking tests, staying up late, finding random parties, and meeting college kids) and finish my degree

If that does not work out I have a few back up plans!:

I recently applied to City Year D.C. if I get the position (and accept) I will be moving to D.C. (On my own, looking for housing an all) and working in the school district helping underpriviledged and At-risk youth.  This will be a challenging second year for me if I do accept it because volunteer service can be very draining.  But it is also very rewarding and life changing. I completed my first interview and I am now awaiting for my second one.

Another program I had applied for is AIDS United AmeriCorps Program:
This is such an interesting program because I would become a certified tester for HIV, a counselor for those affected, among many other things. That is an extremely tough position but again can be very rewarding; if you let it. I originally applied for the program in D.C. but alas, I was not selected, but the program branch out in Chicago called me for an interview, which went really well (I think), they also had told me that they received over 2,000 applications and they only selected 15 for an interview (I was one of them! That made my want the position even more).

And if you know me, you know I love to travel and experience new cultures so I looked into becoming an Au Pair as well! Who knows right, the opportunities are endless.

And if all else fails and I decide I need a break from all this National service I know I can come home and go to a community college for a semester or two and transfer out, but fingers crossed on Rutgers everybody!


Additional summer fun:

54 Days until MGMT Concert

62 Days until Mexico

A new blog about absolutely nothing and absolutely everything. And my life truly is a debacle of epic proportions.